How Far is Far?

So tonight, I was driving home from a town nearby, and I was pulled over by a county officer. I preceded to move over to the side of the road, and cross my fingers about his intentions. He came up to my window asked me for my drivers license and went back to his vehicle for what seemed like an eternity. Finally he returned and gave me my deserving ticket for a sum of 214 dollars. Now the amount may not seem like alot, but what's definitely ironic about it, is that the only savings I have, is the money in my wallet which equals a total of 61 bucks.

Now if you did your math correctly you would find that i am 153 dollars short of meeting the tickets price, and that would be if I were to become broke to pay it off. Which itself is ironic with the amount of bills that I need to pay in the month of march alone.

But in all of this, when I saw the tickets total i laughed out loud sincerely. Here I am, with absolutely no money to begin with, no steady source of income, bills to pay soon, and now this looming 214 bucks that i need to come up with, and it was seriously funny to me. Last year i lost over 500 dollars to my bank at which time i had thousands in savings and i almost cried. But for some reason in this situation where I have no funds to fall back on, i'm less stressed.

Because, truthfully...does it really matter?

To quote a good friend, "money is like a rental car, it gets me from place to place, but i have no ownership of it, and it none of me."

And the crazy thing is, that I find myself more content now, then I did when I had money up the wazoo.

I honestly have no idea how I am going to come up with the money, and that is absolutely no worry to me. God will provide in ways I couldn't even tell you. And my tiny traffic ticket is so small and pitiful compared to some peoples huge problems.

Because theres so much more to this life than anything we hold of value.

I often wonder what would happen, if I were to sell everything I had, and go live on the streets for a year, not knowing where my next meal would come from. Would that affect my outlook on the value of life for my remaining years here on this earth?

Because its not until we've lost everything... that we are free to do anything. (fightclub)

And theres honest truth to that saying. Jesus said give up everything and follow me.

So why do we continually put our hope and trust in things like money?

How far would you go to grasp the true meaning of the gift of life.

Would you give up everything?

To Seek Existence..

There once was a man, who arose every weekday morning to attend a job that he felt indifferent about, but only had as a means to 'pay the bills.' From monday to friday, 8-5, week after week he awoke, and punched in. But of course his weekends come and go as a small reward for the work done during the week. From Friday at 5 until Monday at 8, freedom is within reach, and his mind can forget about the weeks stresses for those 63 hours. Sound familiar?

This is called the 'average' american. Living for the weekend.

Now don't get me wrong, nothing is bad about a 40 hour work week and hanging out with friends on the weekend, but have you ever thought if maybe what life had in store for you was more than just 'average'? Wake up, go to school/work, get home, eat, log into facebook, watch TV, update twitter, go to bed, repeat. This was my life for a portion of what can remember, and all through it i thought "what am i doing this for?"

You see too often we get wrapped up in everything around us that we forget why it is we do the things we do. Some answers are simple.. you go to school to receive an education, you eat to survive. But honestly why do you wake up in the morning? According to last years statistics 33,000 people in america decided that they didn't want to wake up the next morning. So they took their own life. Is this the american dream?

What if we started looking at things as a bigger picture? What if we looked at life is a whole?

What if maybe, just maybe theres something more in store for you then just average?

What is it that motivates you? What is it that makes your life enjoyable and want to wake up the next morning? Is it your friends, family, work, culture religion, kids, success, hope for the weekend?

Because in reality it all comes down to one question. And its a simple one really, we just never take the time to ask it. The 33,000 people who took their own life asked it, and found out that they had no answer.

They asked themselves it..

and maybe if you have the guts you can ask yourself as well.

What am I living for?..